I started this blog as a way to put Brene Brown's claim that vulnerability leads to connection to the test. I believed it in theory but now I have empirical evidence that it works. But self-disclosure is still scary.
It's still a challenge to write about myself in a way that doesn't out all of the people in my life who have not chosen to be vulnerable. So I try to talk about myself without blaming anyone else for my problems--in public, at least. Which is a good approach to life in general, I think.
It's still hard to be open about my weaknesses, although people's responses have been positive. I freak out a little when people remark on how honest a post was, because that means I said something that they probably wouldn't have shared about themselves. But mostly I take it as a compliment.
There are still some posts that I have the urge to take down. I haven't done so yet, because then it will take me longer to get to 100 posts. Luckily I have enough posts that only the most dedicated readers will find them. And if they like my blog that much, they probably won't judge me for them.
I still haven't told clients about my blog. Partly because I'm not brave enough, but also because therapy needs to be about them. Usually they come to see me because they don't have anyone else who will give them their undivided attention. If I were to say, Hey you know what? I wrote a blog on that very same problem. Here's the address, that seems a little self-serving.
It's hard to draw the line between unburdening yourself and burdening someone else. The best part about blogging is that I don't have to feel guilty about unburdening myself because if you're reading this, you have chosen to give me your undivided attention.
And for that, I am thankful.