I am having deja vous. Before last term, we had not had a student death related to a car accident in over 10 years. Yet once again, another student died in a car accident earlier this week. Like the student last term, this student was very involved and visible in the community, was known for helping others, and was on the verge of graduating with a bright future ahead of her.
We tell students that there is no right or wrong way to grieve. But some coping mechanisms are more hurtful than others. She was probably driving too fast. People shouldn't drink and drive. Stupid people die.
When I was a graduate student, one of my favorite theories was the Just World Hypothesis. Because we want to believe in a just world, when something bad happens we assume that the person must have done something to deserve it.
I often hear just world explanations after a sexual assault. She was making out with him on the dance floor. She went back to his room. She didn't fight it so she must have wanted it.
The Just World Hypothesis is closely related to the problems with free will and blame. In order to preserve the belief that we control our destiny, we are willing to take responsibility for things that we don't actually have control over.
I can understand the need to believe that if you make the right choices you will be safe from harm. I want to believe this, too. Usually my attempts at control manifest themselves in perfectionism and excessive guilt.
I don't know how much blame a person should be held responsible for. I don't know how to make sense of all of the suffering in the world. But I know that the more I blame someone, the less compassion I have for them.
So I try to approach suffering in the same way I try to accept my feelings: it doesn't have to make sense. I don't have to know the reason why for suffering to exist. And I try to have faith that when something bad happens, I will be strong enough to handle it.